i'm finally making a new account,b ecause i hate the name of this one. haha
so you can find me at awhnuh.

i'll keep this account for all my old fics, but i'll probably start moving them to the new journal soon.

(:

Are there any Ryan/Brent fics out there? I read the recently finished one where Ryan gets pregnant by Brent and goes off with Brendon, but I was wondering if there were any other ones where him and Brent are together?

Thanks in advance! (:

people are saying they don't care that ryan's leaving, that they could care less. obviously they don't realize that without his words, there wouldn't be the panic at the disco they know and love. i can imagine no one would say they don't care that brendon's leaving, because he has the ~voice~. well, brendon wouldn't be able to use that voice without ~the words~.

the fans' reactions and comments have made me angrier than the actual split. no wonder the fans are hated.

like all panic fans, i'm pretty upset about this. of course, i'm happy for them that they're not going to force the music together as a group, but panic won't be the same without ryan and jon. i refuse to acknowledge brendon and spencer as panic at the disco. it just doesn't work. so, i all ready have a 'RIP PANIC' banner on my panic wall. sad day.

i don't know how this is all going to work though.
jon and ryan will have the lyrics, but not the voice.
brendon and spencer will have the voice, but not the lyrics.

we'll just have to wait and see.

i need to stop listening to "we're so starving" and their live songs. its making me cry.

my background on my laptop is now a tribute to panic. :(

in better news: i might have new fics to post. not sure yet.

Title: You’re All I’ve Got Tonight
Author: xstockpiledmmrs Anna
Rating: Overall R
Pairing: Ryan/Spencer ; Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third (Ryan-centric)
Summary: Ryan’s always had someone to hold him when he goes to sleep, and he’s never gone a night without them. They hold them, promise him a life of love, and the next morning, they’re gone. It’s all a figment of his imagination. But now, Ryan’s starting to see similar characteristics between his lover and the people he knows, and it’s much more complication then he could ever have imagined.
Disclaimer: I do not own the people in this story, no matter how much I want to. The plot, however, is mine. Title belongs to the Smashing Pumpkins.
Author Notes: I lost my beta, so the rest of this isn't beta'd, and will just be posted in my journal. I still have to finish the epilogue. Thanks to artnight for reminding me about this so that I could finish posting it all up. ♥
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( Chapter 5 )

Title: Apples
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: PG
Pairing: Ryan / Brendon
POV: Third - Brendon-centric
Summary: Brendon's the owner of an apple orchard in Minnesota, and fully prepared to meet a nice girl to settle down with in a few years. Ryan's a homeless boy caught in the act, and all he wants is a little love and attention from anyone who will give it to him.
Disclaimer: This isn't true, I don't own it or the boys, and I never will. How unfortunate.

( Prologue )

Title: Pinky Promise
Author: xstockpiledmmrs Anna
Rating: R [drugs ; swearing]
Pairing: Ryan / Brendon
POV: Third
Summary: He gave Ryan this miracle powder, a quick fix to make him feel better, to feel on cloud nine.
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me. I wish the boys did, but... you know how it is.

( Pinky Promise )

Title: You’re All I’ve Got Tonight
Author: xstockpiledmmrs Anna
Rating: R [violence]
Pairing: Ryan/Spencer ; Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third (Ryan-centric)
Summary: Ryan’s always had someone to hold him when he goes to sleep, and he’s never gone a night without them. They hold them, promise him a life of love, and the next morning, they’re gone. It’s all a figment of his imagination. But now, Ryan’s starting to see similar characteristics between his lover and the people he knows, and it’s much more complication then he could ever have imagined.
Disclaimer: I do not own the people in this story, no matter how much I want to. The plot, however, is mine. Title belongs to the Smashing Pumpkins.
Author Notes: I was going to update a few days ago, honest, but I was too tired to go through everything one last time. And yesterday I was sick as a dog, and couldn’t get to my computer. I’ll update in a few days, or I hope I can. And yeah, I am updating on the day of the strike, just because I actually have the chance to upate. Thanks goes to my beta, uncomfortable , as well as omgz_unicorns and perriotsickness
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( Chapter 4 )

Title: You’re All I’ve Got Tonight
Author: xstockpiledmmrs Anna
Rating: R
Pairing: Ryan/Spencer ; Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third (Ryan-centric)
Summary: Ryan’s always had someone to hold him when he goes to sleep, and he’s never gone a night without them. They hold them, promise him a life of love, and the next morning, they’re gone. It’s all a figment of his imagination. But now, Ryan’s starting to see similar characteristics between his lover and the people he knows, and it’s much more complication then he could ever have imagined.
Disclaimer: I do not own the people in this story, no matter how much I want to. The plot, however, is mine. Title belongs to the Smashing Pumpkins.
Author Notes: I got way caught up in school, which is why this is coming so late. I’ll try and make the updates regular. Thanks goes to my beta, uncomfortable , as well as omgz_unicorns and perriotsickness
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( Chapter 3 )

Title: You’re All I’ve Got Tonight
Author: xstockpiledmmrs Anna
Rating: PG-13 (Ratings will change through out the story)
Pairing: Ryan/Spencer ; Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third (Ryan-centric)
Summary: Ryan’s always had someone to hold him when he goes to sleep, and he’s never gone a night without them. They hold them, promise him a life of love, and the next morning, they’re gone. It’s all a figment of his imagination. But now, Ryan’s starting to see similar characteristics between his lover and the people he knows, and it’s much more complication then he could ever have imagined.
Disclaimer: I do not own the people in this story, no matter how much I want to. The plot, however, is mine. Title belongs to the Smashing Pumpkins.
Author Notes: So, I finally realized I’d put off writing a story long enough, and finally started this up sometime in January. It took a while to complete, but I got it done. I all ready have an idea for my next story, and I plan to start writing it in a few weeks once the plot is more thought out.
Dedications: omgz_unicorns How could I not dedicate this to Edi? ; uncomfortable My beta, who helped make this story a million times better than it could ever be. ; perriotsickness She threatened me with a paddle, which scared me into finishing this.
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( Chapter 2 )

Title: You’re All I’ve Got Tonight
Author: xstockpiledmmrs Anna
Rating: PG-13 for language. (Ratings will change through out the story)
Pairing: Ryan/Spencer ; Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third (Ryan-centric)
Summary: Ryan’s always had someone to hold him when he goes to sleep, and he’s never gone a night without them. They hold them, promise him a life of love, and the next morning, they’re gone. It’s all a figment of his imagination. But now, Ryan’s starting to see similar characteristics between his lover and the people he knows, and it’s much more complication then he could ever have imagined.
Disclaimer: I do not own the people in this story, no matter how much I want to. The plot, however, is mine. Title belongs to the Smashing Pumpkins.
Author Notes: So, I finally realized I’d put off writing a story long enough, and finally started this up sometime in January. It took a while to complete, but I got it done. I all ready have an idea for my next story, and I plan to start writing it in a few weeks once the plot is more thought out.
Dedications: omgz_unicorns How could I not dedicate this to Edi? ; uncomfortable My beta, who helped make this story a million times better than it could ever be. ; perriotsickness She threatened me with a paddle, which scared me into finishing this.

( Chapter 1 )

Title: One of Us Must Know (Sooner or Later)
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: Mature
Pairing: Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie ; Ryan Ross/Gabe Saporta ; Ryan Ross/Keltie Colleen
POV: Third, Ryan-centric
Words: ~10,000
Disclaimer: Not true, and will never be true. The title and the lyrics belong to the song One of Us Must Know (Sooner or Later), by Bob Dylan
Summary: But, sooner or later, one of us must know. You just did what you’re supposed to do. Sooner or later, one of us must know, that I really did try to get close to you.
Author's Notes: Uhm. This just kind of… happened over a course of 3 or 4 days? I just was really intent on making this perfect and nice, and… well, I doubt it is. But I hope you like it. <33

( Part II )

Title: One of Us Must Know (Sooner or Later)
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: Mature
Pairing: Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie ; Ryan Ross/Gabe Saporta ; Ryan Ross/Keltie Colleen
POV: Third, Ryan-centric
Words: ~10,000
Disclaimer: Not true, and will never be true. The title and the lyrics belong to the song One of Us Must Know (Sooner or Later), by Bob Dylan
Summary: But, sooner or later, one of us must know. You just did what you’re supposed to do. Sooner or later, one of us must know, that I really did try to get close to you.
Author's Notes: Uhm. This just kind of… happened over a course of 3 or 4 days? I just was really intent on making this perfect and nice, and… well, I doubt it is. But I hope you like it. <33

( Part I )

Title: Choke
Author: xstockpiledmmrs 
Rating: R/NC-17 [Warnings: strangulation, dark themes] 
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon 
POV: Third and First [you'll see what I mean] 
Disclaimer: Not true. Never happened. 
Summary: choke (chohk) v. choked, choking. To interfere with the breathing of; suffocate. 
Author's Notes: I usually wouldn't write kink fics, or anything like this, but... it just kind of popped out? 

( Choke )

Title: Catching the Rain
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third, Ryan-centric
Disclaimer: Not true
Summary: “Ryan? Spencer told me what happened.”
Author's Notes: Thank you to basically everyone who's commented on this, because truly, I never thought so many people would like this. <333 As for a new story, I have barely started on one, but I have two standalones written that will be posted during the week, most likely. But, I could always use new ideas for a story, so feel free to suggest some, because I'm willing to try almost anything.
Dedication: Edi <3
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( Chapter 20 )

Title: Catching the Rain
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third, Ryan-centric
Disclaimer: Not true. All pictures in this chapter are not owned/taken by me, and were found online.
Summary: As soon as Spencer had shut the door, Ryan pushed him up against it, gripping him by his shirt.
Author's Notes: I'll post the last chapter tomorrow, but I'm not sure when I'll get the epilogue up. Enjoy, though. :D [and thank you, everyone, for your comments.]
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( Chapter 19 )

Title: Catching the Rain
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third, Ryan-centric
Disclaimer: Not true
Summary: “Leave. Me. Alone,” he hissed, turning on his heel and breaking into a run.
Author's Notes: It's almost over! :D
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( Chapter 18 )

Title: Catching the Rain
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third, Ryan-centric
Disclaimer: Not true
Summary: “Are you happy with your life now, Ryan Ross?”
Author's Notes: One step closer to being over. I'm working on an epilogue, though, so it's technically out of 21 chapters, I guess you could say.
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( Chapter 17 )

Title: Catching the Rain
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third, Ryan-centric
Disclaimer: Not true
Summary: Ryan didn’t need Brendon to help him with everything.
Author's Notes: Not much of a chapter, and it's short. I guess it's likea filler, really.
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( Chapter 16 )

Title: Catching the Rain
Author: xstockpiledmmrs
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
POV: Third, Ryan-centric
Disclaimer: Not true
Summary: “By the way, I’d prefer it if you didn’t have sex on my bed. I happen to sleep there.”
Author's Notes: Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays. :)
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( Chapter 15 )